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== Today is the third day and its only getting worse. Now i understand why people don't make it past the third day. I’m getting hot and cold. All i want is a fix. Its making me so angry i want to give up this is just making me hurt more and more for all the pain I’m putting my friends and family thru. If I don't get better they're never going to help me again. I can do this. I need to do this. Well Dr. Ramdel said I should write my story and read it over so i can see where i’m going wrong so that i wont do it again. The first time I used was when i got my wisdom teeth out and they prescribed me with percocet. It wasn’t a lot of percocet but i would take it before school. It was the best high i ever had. I was in school in my english class and i couldn't feel anything. Then i started getting sick when it wore off. I hated going to school and not feeling the high so i started doing more each day. After a while I stopped getting high off of the percocet so i started hanging out with some kids from a different town. Its not a very nice town. I started dating my boyfriend of the time was doing perc 30’s i started doing one a day and it felt great. but then one a day just wasn’t enough anymore. $150 a week started adding up and i lost all my money so i started stealing money from my parents. Finally they caught on to what i was doing and thats how i ended up in here...hating myself for ever starting. I know i’m better than this and i always will be i wont relapse i just wont! ==